ergh?!

Forget last night
Trying to forget the pains I cause
If he only knew 
About the secrets I keep
Drowning, trapped
In my own mistakes
I can’t get out
Trying to feel.
Looking in all the wrong places 
To fulfill some need
Loosing myself all the time
To momentary highs
Always followed by a crash
Falling 
Felling like I’m in some kind of horrible wonderland
Searching for a way out of this hole
Finding solace in different arms.
Unsatisfied by the love I have
Wandering and searching
For something to fulfill the emptiness I feel deep inside.